This time around.....

I thought it was going to be different, there was a softness about you, you still had your hatred, but mostly you were nice and soft to me.

You told me you were proud of me I seemed so strong and wise after these 4 years of apart. I still drove you nuts and you couldn't think straight when It came to me.

I told you I respected you and your choice I never wanted to cause any heartache for you, you were so angry when I told you about the child, but we seemed to have grown past that.

I love this side of you, that side that you break your walls down and let me in.....

and then I found the truth...

The same day you told me you were proud of me you told your family members and friends I was crazy, it got to the point that my dear friend who just wanted to have friends in the New York City that she moved to was shun from their group, because you told them these lies about me.

I don't know what to say to this, I feel like a idiot and I feel like I need to apologize for you to my friend, who got her feelings hurt as well because they trashed her , you didn't just ruin me , you ruin her as well, someone you don't know, or I guess you didn't know me at all

You told me you did and always will care for me, and I believed you....

I"m sad and I don't know what to do with or how to approach this