I held my baby for the last time, he's body was still warm from the lights, though his heart stopped beating. His hair was blond and his skin was dark again from the lights. There was this unbelievable pain that just consumes my whole body, words can not describe this kinda pain.
He was a little man, born too early and he fought for 9 days, intill he just gave up, I love him even though he was not complete. He was mine and only mine. My family can't look at me with there Judging eyes disappointment etched in there frames of life ....
I knew him and touched him for 9 days, his father has no clue that he was even born, he walked away from me weeks ago, but really walked away months ago, Psycho he called me with a spit in a face and a fuck you.
Even know as I write this a lump is in my throat and burning sensation in my heart . My baby, Mine....
and life just keeps going but not for my baby my baby boy
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So I don't want to bring anything up because me being your real friend here, but a little bird told me that you and the father of this baby started talking again... any truths.
because I also heard that he was in a bitter hatting mood on Saturday at a club something about someone just told him something that they should have years ago. I am sticking my nose in your business scoop it out and call me !!! I miss your pretty face.
Erica,
I miss you too hon, I might be up your way soon,so we can get together, there is some "truth" in this though well were not talking now. I just have to give him time.
You touch us........
the guys:
thanking, I think, I hope it makes me respect life thank you for stopping by
Jesus. That was a hard post to read. I'm so sorry. I'm glad it's an old post and your doing better (I hope).
Kristin,
thank you for stopping by and reading my post, It still hard but I'm good at doing the motions of life
How terribly difficult for you. I am saddened by your loss. We will think of your little one as a guardian angel for you. Just look on your shoulder once in awhile and feel the warmth of a soul that loves you always.
My heartfelt sympathy,
cher
askcherlock,
Thank you for stopping by and reading my post and thank you for making me think of him in such away
bless you
heather
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