I heart Chaos......

I think a lot of people think this photo represents me.I'm here to say that it does it. Lately I've been hearing a lot of People saying. " Heather you need to let the past go", " Heather why do you dwell on the pain of things" and so on and so on and so on.... Oh and my favorite " Well I don't know why you post online about your whole life, you must need attention"

lol the last one does make me laugh because if you truly know me I'm always hiding in the corner somewhere because I don't want attention. Why do I write my thoughts and feelings in blogs. Cause I need to get it out of me. It's really simple, I don't have anyone to talk to here in the real world. My choice or my friends choices but that does it matter.

Letting go of the past.....
I wish I could, really I want to. That is a dream and a goal that I want so bad in my life I can taste it. I never have the chance though, I need to learn to stop having people call the shots on how they make me feel, or how I keep asking Why me. I know this is from me, I just don't know how to put a stop to it.

I'm not angry that people say these things ( about letting the past go) it would be cool if you all could tell me how to do it. lol because I'm clue less when it comes to it.

I have so many Questions on things in life and why things happen. I guess it's something that I have to figure out on my own. I 'm just tired though. So where do I go from here. How do I change this in myself?